Elia’s debut album, “Embers” explores concepts of heartache, loss, and the tension in holding on just a little longer, through acoustic instrumentation and intentional lyrics.
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Cigarette
We stand two feet apart / And your brown eyes lock up with my heart / We never break that stare / On the front porch step, January air / Up til now we’ve just coexisted / You’ve got the flame, I’ve got the addiction / So light me up / And we don’t stand far away / Close enough for our breath to exchange / You inhale, I exhale and we spark a new flame / And the air that surrounds turns to grey / Covering everything in a haze / All our feelings and words that we’re too scared to say / The words they beg to gloat / And they hang out there in the back of my throat / Anxious, they scratch to come out / But to feel that buzz / I gotta push ‘em down / My ignorance has no expectations / Your silence a flame to feed my addiction / You light me up / And we don’t stand far away / Close enough for our breath to exchange / You inhale, I exhale and we spark a new flame / And the air that surrounds turns to grey / Covering everything in a haze / All our feelings and words that we’re too scared to say/ As the embers crawl their way up to our fingers / Silence hanging in the air where death it lingers / Killing us slowly / Up til now we’ve just coexisted / You’ve got the flame, I’ve got the addiction
Hold My Heart
Saying goodbye shows a piece of my soul / I didn’t know I had / And now that I’m leaving / I’m begging and pleading / Can I please have it back / As I step towards the sky / There’s a weight at my side / That’s holding me down / Me feet glued to the ground / Saying goodbye to places that I’ll never see again / Where I grew up / The house down the lane / Where my family lives / If I don’t ever blink / Will my life really think / It’s moving on / Even when it is / So won’t you hold my heart / As I leave it behind / In your hands dear there’s no better place that it could be / So I’ll leave this old heart with you / I’ll leave this old heart with you / Saying goodbye to photographed days of innocence / With each day that passes / I know that I won’t fit / In their arms again / My heart’s still a child / But my mind’s running wild / Down that road / That I’m staring down alone / So won’t you hold my heart / As I leave it behind / In your hands dear there’s no better place that it could be / So I’ll leave this old heart with you / I’ll leave this old heart with you / I won’t be far / If you’re the one who holds my heart / No I won’t be far / If you’re the one / To hold my heart / As I leave it behind / In your hands dear there’s no better place that it could be / So I’ll leave this old heart with you / I’ll leave this old heart with you / I’ll leave this old heart with you
Dear Washington
I was only 13 when you broke my heart the first time/ When they said that they were moving on / tears rolled down from my eyes / I stood in the driveway of my childhood home / And watched as a little red van rolled away into your arms / But I’ll give you my heart / And I’ll try to move on / Here we go again / Please don’t break my heart, dear Washington / Every time before / You’ve taken just a little more /Here we go again / Won’t you please just be my friend this time / I’m packing up my bags / I’m giving you all I have / I was only 14 when you broke my heart in half / You gave me someone new to love / While knowing I would get attached / Well to be honest I wished we’d never died / Like the evergreens around their house I hoped that we’d survive /I was only 19 / When I finally moved on / And I headed towards the place where all my heartache came from / I boxed up all my things / And I packed them each away / Just to cross over the stateline and be greeted with a cloud of gray / But I’ll give you my heart / And I’ll try to move on / Here we go again / Please don’t break my heart, dear Washington / Every time before / You’ve taken just a little more /Here we go again / Won’t you please just be my friend this time / I’m packing up my bags / I’m giving you all I have / 13 made me sad / And then 14 broke my heart / And 19 made me think that you and I could mend what fell apart / But here we go again / You just break my heart dear Washington / Like every time before / You took it all but now there’s nothing more /And here we go again / I believed that we’d be friends this time / But I’m packing up my bags / I gave you all I had / Dear Washington
Like That
I would move across the country / Go wherever that you say / Bend over backwards just to make you happy / Wouldn’t care which bones I break/ And when you get home from working / I would gladly hang your coat / And encourage you to your mindless dreaming / Though it leaves me on my own / I would lose myself a thousand times if just to find you / Carry weight on my shoulders that’s clearly meant for two / Loan my heart in pieces not worried if I’ll get ‘em back / But I know you wouldn’t love me / You wouldn’t love me / You wouldn’t love me like that / I would pull away the sunshine / From behind the darkest clouds / I know you hate it when it’s gray / So I won’t let the rain come down / And I know your heart is fragile / And you always guess the worst / So I will guard my lips and I won’t be / The reason that you hurt / I would lose myself a thousand times if just to find you / Carry weight on my shoulders that’s clearly meant for two / Loan my heart in pieces not worried if I’ll get ‘em back / But I know you wouldn’t love me / You wouldn’t love me / You wouldn’t love me like that / But I’m worried the years will not convince my tears / To stop falling over your name / Flattery in your eyes, I wish my feelings could lie / Loving you’s like planting flowers in the shade / It’s becoming its own form of hate / I would lose myself a thousand times if just to find you / Carry weight on my shoulders that’s clearly meant for two / Loan my heart in pieces not worried if I’ll get ‘em back / But I know you wouldn’t love me / You wouldn’t love me / You wouldn’t love me like that
Be Where You Were
If I turn on the news to channel four like you used to / Will I hear a voice similar to yours / If I sit and watch the birds from my window as they talk / Will they tell me they gave you your wings / I want to be where you were / Even if it silently breaks my heart / ‘Cause the memories just do not do enough / So I’ll sit, close as I can get / And be where you are / If I spend all my time cooking in the kitchen drinking wine / Will your fragrance fill up the room / If I leave myself little notes and dollar bills in the pockets of my coat / Will I think you left them for me / I want to be where you are / Even if it silently breaks my heart / ‘Cause the memories just do not do enough / So I’ll sit, close as I can get / And be where you were / Maybe I’ll get a little bit closer / Maybe I’ll be more in tune / To the presence of your spirits / Maybe they will heal these wounds / ‘Cause I need to be where you are / Even if it silently breaks my heart / ‘Cause the memories just do not do enough / So I’ll sit close as I can get / I can’t help but sit / Close as I can get / And be where you were
House
Wrap around driveway / Two dogs in the yard / Right off the highway / Makes the hour not seem too far / Old front door in deep teal / You said it needs replaced / The roof leaks, the paint peels / Like your past you just need to repaint / And I still haven’t found what I miss / Can’t put my finger on it / I’m still waiting round for that kiss / Restlessly unfinished / You’re still living up in that house / While I live alone in all the what-ifs / Two pans in your kitchen / But we made it work / Bought a whisk tied a ribbon / But last it was returned / And I still haven’t found what I miss / Can’t put my finger on it / I’m still waiting round for that kiss / Restlessly unfinished / You’re still living up in that house / While I live alone in all the what-ifs / I might not ever go there again / Remove the address from the map in my head / Thought it’s the place where our good thing begins / But I guess it’s the spot where / My memories of you live when they end / There’s a million things that I miss / But when I get real honest / I’m still waiting round for that kiss / Restlessly unfinished / You’re still living up in that house / While I live alone in all the what-ifs / You are the thing from your house I most miss
Produced by Jeff Martin. Mastered by Danny Kalb. Artwork by Elia Giuliani.
Flying
When I was ten I pinky-promised myself I would get out / I wouldn’t end up like my parents / Swallowed by the backroads of this town / The waves of that grey-blue atlantic seemed to call out my name / Four hundred miles and a few years short of being able to get away / Save me a seat in the sky / ‘Cause one day / I’ll be flying / By now I thought I’d have a cottage tucked right beside the sea / The salt would blow all through my hair / And sand would wrap all over my feet / But now Ohio holds me closely and tempts me as if I forgot / By scattering a couple seagulls all throughout the grocery parking lot / Save me a seat in the sky / ‘Cause one day / I’ll be flying / Ooooooo I’m scared of what I know / And how her fingers seem to choke / Round the neck of all my dreams / I’m scared that I / Ooooo will make myself a liar / Toss every dream right in the fire / Started by complacency / I’m scared that for me / That for me / There’s no seat in the sky / And that I’ll never fly
Mexico
Daydreams of Mexico / While I’m sitting here and I’m stuck in my home / Seattle is rainy / Seattle is cold / But in Mexico / Daydreams of Mexico / ‘Cause I’ve got an itch and it’s wearing my soul / Like a worn pair of jeans / My passport is ready to go / Where the sun’s bright / And when it shines / It reflects back through your gorgeous eyes / If the world falls apart / I know a place we can go / Mexico / Daydreams of Mexico / While my foot’s on the brake in traffic alone / I dream of a place / Where time moves slow / My passport is ready to go / Where the sun’s bright / And when it shines / It reflects back through your gorgeous eyes / If the world falls apart / I know a place we can go / Where the sky’s blue / And all I’d do / Is soak up a heatwave / Next to you / Oh, I’ve made up my mind / Are you ready to / Hop in the car / No it won’t be long / Before we cross the border / And we sound the alarm / Two kids from the city / Legally we’ve got to run / Hop in the car / No it won’t be long / Before we cross the border / And we sound the alarm / Two kids from the city / No longer waiting to go / To Mexico
Crime
If I wasn’t over you would it be such a crime / ‘Cause my heart always tells the truth / And it can never lie / I know that you’re busy / Your arms wrapped around someone new / But would it be such a crime / If I wasn’t over you / ‘Cause I find myself dreaming / Of what we could be / And look in the eyes of a future that you couldn’t see / As hard as I’ve tried / There’s no convincing this soul / The world says move on / But I can’t seem to let you go / If I hid you inside of my heart would it be such a crime / Covered my feelings up with the dark / And I stuck to my lies / Dressed in the shadows / Paint a brave face like it’s an art / Would it be such a crime / If I hid you inside of my heart / ‘Cause I find myself dreaming / Of what we could be / And look in the eyes of a future that you couldn’t see / As hard as I’ve tried / There’s no convincing this soul / The world says move on / But I can’t seem to let you go / I know I’m not over you / And that’s considered a crime / So go ahead lock me up / ‘Cause I’m tired of the lies